A lot of people don’t get the 88-second track called ‘Waiting’ on my EP, ‘Swallowing Death, Breathing Life.’ It sounds strange, it is repetitive, and it is easy to pass on by.  I want connect it to my life today. And it will probably connect to you in some way too.

Waiting sucks. I hate it. I fit into the culture of entitlement.  I’m a type-A, competitive artist that is a professional at throwing fits when I don’t get my way – interesting combination, I know.

Obviously God understands how awful I am at having patience. I also think He has a grand sense of humor – or maybe He just wants me to be the best person I can be. I don’t know. But I do know that my patience is often tested.

When there is a goal in mind, I run.  When there is a dream on my heart, I start.  When there is a hurt in the world, I aim to bring healing.  And you know what? I’m still running. I’m still doing. And I’m still healing.

Waiting sucks.

The sound to this track is haunting, and if I am being honest, it is angry.  I wrote it that way because that is where I’m at in my place of waiting. I am confused and I am angry.

Maybe you are there with me today.  You’re waiting. I believe that completion is a major chord waiting to resolve.  It will only resolve when the composer wants it to.  Our life isn’t a beginning or an end. It is a moment. Our life is today.  So, in this waiting, I’ll be angry and I won’t understand it, but I will continue to do. Besides, when the chord resolves, the song comes to in an end.  The people fold up there chairs and they leave. I want to live.

Whatever you are doing today, don’t stop. Please. Be angry. Stomp your feet. Curse. Scream. Cry. Throw things. Who cares?

Just don’t stop doing. Never give up.